leahreah

she is the girl with the hollow bones and scraped knees, who once floated through clouds and the limits of the atmosphere just to breathe in the stardust and plummet back down when she can't find air. she is the one with the crooked smiles and the eyes that they don't reach anymore. she is made up of waters. what used to be the Caribbean - careless shades of blue called in by zephyrs from faraway kingdoms - has faded to the Arctic, all prickling salt and bitter tides. she slips in and out of seasons: a creature of summer with a frostbitten winter behind her eyelids, frozen ponds and heavy snow. still, she searches for a way to th

i am all bottled up an innocence that's been corrupt a hurricane in a jar i am an ocean in a cup i am a writer who can't read a plant without a seed a lover without a heart i am a leader who can't lead i am a bubble about to pop a weight about to drop a star about to fall i am a heart about to stop i am a kiss without love a wedding without doves a smile without a laugh i am a bat without a glove i am a key without a lock a tic without a tock a truth with a lie i am a boat stuck at the dock i am a seeker that is lost winter morning without frost a life that has to live no matter what the cost

to me you are the ocean; deep and always in motion, tasting of longing and sorrow and places far from here. you tell me you wish you were back in new york or barcelona or london, anywhere but here, and i can't help but feel sad that you never offer to bring me along. at night you stroke my hair and whisper of distant cities that are missing you and islands that you loved and lost and are longing for. the lovely words that you use can't fight the knowing that you will certainly leave me soon. our love is fleeting just like all of your loves, and you've had many because you are beautiful and disastrous and everything else girls are attracte

when i grow old i don't want to remember the first time you kissed me - in the school parking lot before we parted ways, awkward and fast, your lips crushing a bit uncomfortably into mine. i want to remember that night; me lying wide awake, wondering how i ever could've found a guy as perfect as you. i don't want to think about when you first told me you loved me – words used far too much. i want to remember all the ways you showed it; a brush of your hand to mine while we walked, that small smile you give me so often, and that day i cried until i soaked the shoulder of your t-shirt in snot and tears and you didn't complain, not onc

run, run, run my feet thump, thump, thump i'm going fast, so fast only an hour a minute a second away from flying. colors swirl around me but i can't be bothered to look at them i just keep running and soon everything is a blur the drumming of my heart the steady breaths i take the movement of one foot after another are the only things i am aware of i can't stop not now not ever i have to run, run, run get away from life from love from problems from everything else in the world with each step i erase him and me and them and everything else in the world they say, you can't run forever, little girl i say, w